Wednesday, April 27, 2011


I screwed up....
I broke the no-chocolate rule...I was walking home from class and I stopped in CVS to get something to drink cuz it's a million degrees in NYC right now...and I saw the Easter chocolate on sale....I swear I don't think I was even controlling my actions any more...before I knew it I was in my room with wrappers around me...I'm so ashamed. I mean I couldn't eat a 400 calorie sandwich because of the guilt today, but I can zone out and eat about 2,000 calories of chocolate in one sitting? NO!!!
I'm just sooo frustrated with myself. It's like I'm literally an addict! I didn't even enjoy it either. It didn't even taste GOOD!!! But could I stop myself? NO! And you want to know what makes it even worse? I feel too sick to go to the gym now....that's right...I am too much of a fat disgusting cow to go to the gym...I need to stop failing. The last few days were perfect and then I had to go and fuck them all up, because that's what i do best....


  1. I'm so sorry.
    But tomorrow is a new day and everything will be alright.

  2. It's okay we are ALL like this. Every day you get a fresh pure clean slate! Don't ever forget that! Forget all the yesterdays and focus on today ((: