I got rejected...again....The male species is impossible!!! They act like one thing, but always mean something else! I'm just tooo disguting. I know it. No one wants a fat, ugly cow. No one EVER wants something that disgusting. And I am definately still that disgusting...
On the plus side, yesterday was an amazing day for ana....I went to the gym for almost two hours and between the eliptical, the rowing machine and the stregth training i did, I burnt about 450 calories....that's great considering that my goal is to have less then 1,000 net calories a day, that way, even if I'm a pig, I still burn about 500 calories, just by living...I burned an extra 200 yesterday....I was doing so well until I pigged out on Nutella at the end of th day...I still only had about 800 net cals though.
I'm gonna try to do better though....I've officially started with my new fitness plan. I'm going to look good in a bathing suit this year if it kills me. Or, at the very least, better than previous years. I'm working out at least 30 minutes every day. I'm doing an hour of gym (minimum) on Monday, Wednesday and Friday. On Tuesday, I do an hour of aerobics. And on Monday, I do an hour of yoga before gym. On Tuesday and Thursday I also am gonna do Pilates or a video or two off of ExerciseTV. That's enough to start off with I think for now.
I might also start cutting down on the cals even more. I can even blame it on my newest guy fiasco if my friends ask about itAt least I can turn the shit in my life into something positive.